Loss of interest or motivation?

I’ve recently been asked a few times what do I enjoy or do I have any hobbies. I can’t help feel like this sad pathetic person because I don’t have anything to say on this topic.

So before I had my daughter I went to the gym, did a bit of DIY around the house and felt like maybe I could answer this question. Now I just don’t feel like anything excites me and I can’t even think of something I want to do. I have to find a job soon and I have no clue what to look for. Even the job centre said find something you enjoy. What even is that! It’s starting to stress me out a little for many reasons. Is this temporary, my mental health or something else.

I’m trying to figure out if it’s my lack of motivation and just being tired that’s stopping me from finding something that I’m passionate about. It’s also quite difficult being a full time mum to a toddler to actually have the time to find a new hobby. It’s not like I have free evenings where I can pop out to a new sport club.

Surely I’m not the only one that feels this way at some point. How do you get out of it! Otherwise I feel like the most boring person in the world and it’s not the vibe I want to give my daughter.

I’m definitely needing to get deep under my soul and figure myself out. Maybe meditation will help me to find what I’m passionate about. I wrote another blog about identity crisis from being a childless person to a mother and I feel like my lack of enjoyment might be interlinked with this. Maybe I just need to find what I enjoy now as a mother or just give myself some time as I have had a lot going on. I’m not acknowledging my journey enough and how much life has changed for me. Add in the hormones and no wonder it’s freaking me out a little bit. One part of me is scared to find out the answer to my question and another part of me is looking forward to seeing if I can enjoy things again.

Be caring to yourself xx

Where is my energy?

One of these days I would love to wake up with lots of energy and just smash out the day! I shouldn’t do it but looking at Instagram is making me feel so out of condition and like a heap of potatoes.

I was a really active child and teenager. Joining the Army after I left school, fitness was my favourite thing to do all the time. Even when I left the army I went into personal training. Then out of knowhere I completely lost my love of sport and exercise.

I’m not sure if I had some sort of mental breakdown or something but it’s been like an identity crisis for me when I lost something I loved doing. Now I have little motivation for anything active. Which as you can imagine just makes everything worse.

Funny fact; I’m current writing this blog while on my spin bike. Trying to gain some sort of inspiration from my life. Plus I had an Easter egg yesterday so the guilt has kicked in haha. No I don’t go on it every day at all!

So what I am trying to figure out is whether this is all in my head this lack of energy or there is something going on in my body to make me feel this way.

I have a two year old daughter too which I raise by myself so obviously that takes away a little bit of my energy. Or could it be that I’m 30 this year and energy just isn’t the same! Surely this can’t be it!

I’ve started being really strict with taking all the essential vitamins plus a few extra ones to help with my pms. I also make sure I eat healthy too. Water I could drink more so I need to really focus on this one as they say it can help with your energy levels.

If it is a mental barrier what can I do to change this? Should I push myself to get up everyday and just go for a walk to help kickstart my energy levels? I think I will start doing some sort of diary and get back to everyone on this. I’m pretty sure lockdown hasn’t helped with feeling so shut in all the time.

How about yourselves? Is energy a problem that you suffer with on a daily basis or are you still out and about working your ass off and looking fantastic from it? Please leave comments if you have been in the same situation and managed to solve it!

Be caring to yourself xx